One Bad Day.
Not today, I'm wishing that after i finish typing, I'll slumped down on my bed, cover myself with my nice blanky, and dream about the nicest thing ever, then I'd wake up the coming morning and have a great day.
So, how was yesterday?
Well. Yesterday was Tuesday. It started with an early morning call from my dad.
"Ying, it's seven o clock, wake up."
I nodded in reply. Five minutes later, I woke up, went to the kitchen, drank a glass of water and went into the bathroom to wash myself.
Ten minutes later, I went back to my room... climb on my bed... and went back to sleep.
7:30am. My mom called me from outside... she's been sleeping in the hall again. I told her I'm not going to school cuz I'm tired and lazy. She didn't say anything. Well, it's the hols and it's not my fault my add maths teacher didn't come to school for a lot of time and make us go for extra classes!!!
7:35am. I was at the dining table eating breakfast.
8:00am. I was on my way to school liao. Walked to the Pdn Indah LRT station, took LRT for one station gap, got down at Pdn Jaya LRT station and walked all the way to school. Like what my dad says, "Morning walk mar!" Well, I'd be glad to "Morning walk" if I was walking alone... but NO! I had to bang into my school mate and walked with her... in an extremely slow pace.
11:00am. Finish class.
11:30am. Reached home.
1:30pm. ON my way OUT again. NOPE! I'm not going OUT going out, I'm going OUT to Simshen, so I can open the big doors and wait for my fellow Little Noise makers to arrive. Choir was supposed to start at 2:30pm, but I know that some would come earlier so I had to go early. Not alone this time, I had Angie as company. My sister? At home bathing.
2:00pm. Two or three Noise Makers arrived.
2:30pm. A few more reached.
2:35pm. Those that's supposed to be here's here.
Jia Ying's feelings now: NOt happy.
Reason: Shu Xian came up happily as she practically skipped through the open doors I had opened. Curious, I asked, "Hey Shu Xian... why so happy ahh?" and the little girl replied, "Oooh, Fish jie jie brought me for a swim!" I raised my eyebrow and smirked, snickered and then sighed. I wasn't exactly MAD, I was just NOT happy. WHY? Well, the choir members had told me yesterday that they had "family" issues to deal with this morning, therefore they COULDN'T come help fix the leaves (Props for the costumes -- concert coming this SATURDAY). Then the thing that really triggered me off was when I grinned at the "GANG" and said, "Bye bye..." playfully through the glass door and pretends not to let them in. Guess what pretty said, "Bye bye ahh? Ok lar bye bye!" in a mocking tone, rolled eyes, and turned away. That strucked me straight in the heart. I opened the door, Rong + Angie came and said, "Hor!! Late!! Have to denda! One minute one dollar! Five minutes Five dollars!" and then cutie replied, "Give mar give lar, you think I don't have ahh? NAH, ten dollars for me and my sister!" That caught my hard and stabbed another wound.
Now... what was that? What is with all the aksi aksi? Show offs? and Black sour plummed face? What did I do? I'm not the one who LIED and said they had FAMILY ISSUES and THEN go for FUN for some badminton thing! Oh... I left out another part. When I was on my way back from School, I met with ringy and she said she was off to tuition and couldn't come for practice. Maybe she wasn't lying. But she promised to attend the practice RIGHT after her tuition. Guess what? She didn't come. OKay, back to the other one. The gang. So I had a small talk and told them what I wasn't happy about, then I asked them if they were unhappy about me. No one said anything. I'm betting that no one DARED to say anything. Fine. Don't wanna talk in front, wanna talk behind? GO AHEAD! WHO FUCKIN CARES? Okay, I DO! I'm thinking ON BEHALF of the choir ALL ThE TIME!! I don't want it to divide! I don't DIVIDE AND CONCOUR!
Says in mocking tone, "Ohh... how wei da of you! You're in music, you are going to be a musician, that's what you work as in the future! That's why you are so commited!"
Go to hell.
GIMME A BREAK!
You guys, if I'm the only one who LOVES this choir. Then FINE! Little Noise is DONE AND OVER! No nono, not for you guys, for ME! After this CONCERT! I'm gone for good!
WHY?
I HATE YOU GUYS.
YOU GUYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED! THAT'S WHY!
When there's a problem you need to solve when you need someone to do the dirty job like PERSUADE your parents to let you go to TAIWAN trip OR maybe help you out in something... ahhh who's there to do it? JIA YING!
When there's a new song, you need to learn, you need to train up... OR maybe you need a good idea for next year's concert, or someone to do the script, or someone to think what uniform would we be wearing?? Who's to do the stupid job??? JIA YING!!!
OH how about this...
When you've just won something, got a compliment from the audience, and found out that Litle Noise is getting famous? WHo's the one that gets Credited??? Why I'm surprised... why isn't it Jia Ying this time?
When the choir needs publicity, when the choir needs life, when the choir needs what ever it needs. Who's the one that puts every effort into it? Who's the one that plugs their WHOLE energy source into it and tries to make the best? Who's the one that gets everyone together?
"Oh c'mon Jia Ying, you're the president, you should do it!"
Well, if that is fuckin TRUE of what you think, then I'm a failure. I really really really am a failure. Because I've failed to plant that little team spirit in Little Noise. Yea, because all my freakin members ARE so selfish that they sell fishes every single minute. But when the glory moment comes, they wouldn't forget to take a few percentage of it.
Gosh, I was SO heartbroken today.
I was heartbroken by the look of everyone.
"I'm bored!"
"Sienz!"
"We've been through this again and again and again and Jia Ying still wants us to DO AGAIN!"
YES! I KNOW ITS FREAKIN BORING! I"M BORED TOO! SO??? WHAT AM I TO DO? LEAVE THE FREAKIN NEW MEMBERS OUT AND SAY, "Oh, we all know the steps and moves and songs, so you guys practice yourself!" PLUS, it's not like you guys are BRILLIANT! You don't remember your lines, you don't know what to do next, and you expect me to be nice and flexible with you guys and let you off early just because you show me that UGLY UGLY UGLY black face you soaked in soot? I can MEMORIZE the WHOLE thing and NOT MISS A SINGLE WORD! YOU? CAN YOU? If all of you can! Then fine! I won't do the things again and again and again. ANd those NEW MEMBERS of ours, no, MINE! MY NEW MEMBERS! They can just go learn everything by themselves.
PUH-LEASE! GET A GRIP!
Think of this: If it wasn't for JIA YING, there wouldn't be Little Noise. Yea, it's true! I wouldn't deny it if you say you wouldn't die if there wasn't Little Noise. If you even had that thought in your mind for two seconds, you can suicide, jump off the building. If it wasn't for Little Noise... think of those happy times you had. If it wasn't for Little Noise. AND DON"T YOU EVEN DARE TELL ME LITTLE NOISE BROUGHT NOTHING TO YOU. I'll eat shit if you dare say it out loud and prove your statement!
Right. I'm done with my say.
Some call outs to people:
Pui Mun: Thanks for coming all the way down to K.L. and bringing such a wonderful friend with you along.
Mun Fong: Wouldn't had gone through this without you. Although I hadn't told any of you how I felt, but just listening to you caring bout me is nice enough.
The Creator of MF: I had a great time RPing there! lolx. Running away from reality is real nice.
Rong: You know lar, you understand me best.
Angie: You're like my second sister, so, you understand me second-best.
Mom: I love you.
Dad: I love you too.
FL jie jie: LOADS of love for just understanding how I felt.
oh... and Jane (Ajinomoto) : *smiles* *winks* TQ.
So, how was yesterday?
Well. Yesterday was Tuesday. It started with an early morning call from my dad.
"Ying, it's seven o clock, wake up."
I nodded in reply. Five minutes later, I woke up, went to the kitchen, drank a glass of water and went into the bathroom to wash myself.
Ten minutes later, I went back to my room... climb on my bed... and went back to sleep.
7:30am. My mom called me from outside... she's been sleeping in the hall again. I told her I'm not going to school cuz I'm tired and lazy. She didn't say anything. Well, it's the hols and it's not my fault my add maths teacher didn't come to school for a lot of time and make us go for extra classes!!!
7:35am. I was at the dining table eating breakfast.
8:00am. I was on my way to school liao. Walked to the Pdn Indah LRT station, took LRT for one station gap, got down at Pdn Jaya LRT station and walked all the way to school. Like what my dad says, "Morning walk mar!" Well, I'd be glad to "Morning walk" if I was walking alone... but NO! I had to bang into my school mate and walked with her... in an extremely slow pace.
11:00am. Finish class.
11:30am. Reached home.
1:30pm. ON my way OUT again. NOPE! I'm not going OUT going out, I'm going OUT to Simshen, so I can open the big doors and wait for my fellow Little Noise makers to arrive. Choir was supposed to start at 2:30pm, but I know that some would come earlier so I had to go early. Not alone this time, I had Angie as company. My sister? At home bathing.
2:00pm. Two or three Noise Makers arrived.
2:30pm. A few more reached.
2:35pm. Those that's supposed to be here's here.
Jia Ying's feelings now: NOt happy.
Reason: Shu Xian came up happily as she practically skipped through the open doors I had opened. Curious, I asked, "Hey Shu Xian... why so happy ahh?" and the little girl replied, "Oooh, Fish jie jie brought me for a swim!" I raised my eyebrow and smirked, snickered and then sighed. I wasn't exactly MAD, I was just NOT happy. WHY? Well, the choir members had told me yesterday that they had "family" issues to deal with this morning, therefore they COULDN'T come help fix the leaves (Props for the costumes -- concert coming this SATURDAY). Then the thing that really triggered me off was when I grinned at the "GANG" and said, "Bye bye..." playfully through the glass door and pretends not to let them in. Guess what pretty said, "Bye bye ahh? Ok lar bye bye!" in a mocking tone, rolled eyes, and turned away. That strucked me straight in the heart. I opened the door, Rong + Angie came and said, "Hor!! Late!! Have to denda! One minute one dollar! Five minutes Five dollars!" and then cutie replied, "Give mar give lar, you think I don't have ahh? NAH, ten dollars for me and my sister!" That caught my hard and stabbed another wound.
Now... what was that? What is with all the aksi aksi? Show offs? and Black sour plummed face? What did I do? I'm not the one who LIED and said they had FAMILY ISSUES and THEN go for FUN for some badminton thing! Oh... I left out another part. When I was on my way back from School, I met with ringy and she said she was off to tuition and couldn't come for practice. Maybe she wasn't lying. But she promised to attend the practice RIGHT after her tuition. Guess what? She didn't come. OKay, back to the other one. The gang. So I had a small talk and told them what I wasn't happy about, then I asked them if they were unhappy about me. No one said anything. I'm betting that no one DARED to say anything. Fine. Don't wanna talk in front, wanna talk behind? GO AHEAD! WHO FUCKIN CARES? Okay, I DO! I'm thinking ON BEHALF of the choir ALL ThE TIME!! I don't want it to divide! I don't DIVIDE AND CONCOUR!
Says in mocking tone, "Ohh... how wei da of you! You're in music, you are going to be a musician, that's what you work as in the future! That's why you are so commited!"
Go to hell.
GIMME A BREAK!
You guys, if I'm the only one who LOVES this choir. Then FINE! Little Noise is DONE AND OVER! No nono, not for you guys, for ME! After this CONCERT! I'm gone for good!
WHY?
I HATE YOU GUYS.
YOU GUYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED! THAT'S WHY!
When there's a problem you need to solve when you need someone to do the dirty job like PERSUADE your parents to let you go to TAIWAN trip OR maybe help you out in something... ahhh who's there to do it? JIA YING!
When there's a new song, you need to learn, you need to train up... OR maybe you need a good idea for next year's concert, or someone to do the script, or someone to think what uniform would we be wearing?? Who's to do the stupid job??? JIA YING!!!
OH how about this...
When you've just won something, got a compliment from the audience, and found out that Litle Noise is getting famous? WHo's the one that gets Credited??? Why I'm surprised... why isn't it Jia Ying this time?
When the choir needs publicity, when the choir needs life, when the choir needs what ever it needs. Who's the one that puts every effort into it? Who's the one that plugs their WHOLE energy source into it and tries to make the best? Who's the one that gets everyone together?
"Oh c'mon Jia Ying, you're the president, you should do it!"
Well, if that is fuckin TRUE of what you think, then I'm a failure. I really really really am a failure. Because I've failed to plant that little team spirit in Little Noise. Yea, because all my freakin members ARE so selfish that they sell fishes every single minute. But when the glory moment comes, they wouldn't forget to take a few percentage of it.
Gosh, I was SO heartbroken today.
I was heartbroken by the look of everyone.
"I'm bored!"
"Sienz!"
"We've been through this again and again and again and Jia Ying still wants us to DO AGAIN!"
YES! I KNOW ITS FREAKIN BORING! I"M BORED TOO! SO??? WHAT AM I TO DO? LEAVE THE FREAKIN NEW MEMBERS OUT AND SAY, "Oh, we all know the steps and moves and songs, so you guys practice yourself!" PLUS, it's not like you guys are BRILLIANT! You don't remember your lines, you don't know what to do next, and you expect me to be nice and flexible with you guys and let you off early just because you show me that UGLY UGLY UGLY black face you soaked in soot? I can MEMORIZE the WHOLE thing and NOT MISS A SINGLE WORD! YOU? CAN YOU? If all of you can! Then fine! I won't do the things again and again and again. ANd those NEW MEMBERS of ours, no, MINE! MY NEW MEMBERS! They can just go learn everything by themselves.
PUH-LEASE! GET A GRIP!
Think of this: If it wasn't for JIA YING, there wouldn't be Little Noise. Yea, it's true! I wouldn't deny it if you say you wouldn't die if there wasn't Little Noise. If you even had that thought in your mind for two seconds, you can suicide, jump off the building. If it wasn't for Little Noise... think of those happy times you had. If it wasn't for Little Noise. AND DON"T YOU EVEN DARE TELL ME LITTLE NOISE BROUGHT NOTHING TO YOU. I'll eat shit if you dare say it out loud and prove your statement!
Right. I'm done with my say.
Some call outs to people:
Pui Mun: Thanks for coming all the way down to K.L. and bringing such a wonderful friend with you along.
Mun Fong: Wouldn't had gone through this without you. Although I hadn't told any of you how I felt, but just listening to you caring bout me is nice enough.
The Creator of MF: I had a great time RPing there! lolx. Running away from reality is real nice.
Rong: You know lar, you understand me best.
Angie: You're like my second sister, so, you understand me second-best.
Mom: I love you.
Dad: I love you too.
FL jie jie: LOADS of love for just understanding how I felt.
oh... and Jane (Ajinomoto) : *smiles* *winks* TQ.
posted by JiaYing @ 1:17 AM
1 Comments:
At 6:21 PM,
Anonymous said…
Uh hmm... Well, you think that we wanted to do a black sour plummed face?? Of course, we choose to be happy more than doing that kind of face. You know this gang, we love to chit-chatting. love to talk craps, love to laugh and all those happy happy stuff... And not to show off... Why does we do that? I have no idea... Just like Panda says, maybe we don't really know you well... We don't know how is your NEI XIN SHI JIE, don't know what are you thinking of... and as they say, you guys are complicated person, hard to know what are you thinking... Not that we want to tell you that we going to play badminton is just because that time you say you are in control of the costume so we gave everything to you... Someone ask you before whether can you manage to do this yourself, and guess what you say. "Then, you want me to do or not??!!" So, that's why we don't want to tell you that we go to play badminton. We just let you finish off everything... Maybe you will think that we are very very very very very selfish...
For goodness sake, we did not take advantages ok??? This is a teamwork... everybody gets their advantages not a few person get more advantages... the one who get most advantages is you, your mum and your sis. Because you guys are the one who organise everything. and yet, we are just the members helping you out to succeed on something.
One more stuff, I really want to tell you abt the musical, i mean the kelemahan.. but dun DARE!!! I know what I say now maybe doesn't make any changes but I say it out, will make me feel more comfortable.
Before Jia Rong founds Fish stuck her leg in the pot, she say "Who's there? Who's there? Who's there" rite?? That is like... TOO FAKE!!! Takkan somebody broken into ur house and for like so calm and so fast say out all those lines... She should be very very very very very scared about it... Like talk slowly and her voice must be shaking... as if like somebody really broken into your house like what you say about the somebody "climb" over ur balcony and into your house... Even my friend say that her acting is kinda........... not concentrate, not really into the JUE SE...
That is what I have to say, maybe is erm..... nonsense, rubbish, but yet, I feel more confortable that I've say it out...
Lastly, I would like to say that... When we play together, is really fun but when you become strict and garang... You look freaky... Honestly, now, I say out everything... hope you don't mind...
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